Nothing New

I know it's been a little while. Not much going on here on the bipolar front. I had an off day yesterday, but nothing to write home about. We've been keeping busy this summer going to the beach and river. B is on his 3rd week with no work, but he's going to help his brother tomorrow. Matt is going with him and is so excited, he went right to bed. Anna wants to go, my little tomboy, but one is enough.

my show is coming on, so I'm going to sign off for the night.

Trying to get better

The depression came back, this time real quick. I called Dr. K right away and he increased my celexa. Hopefully I'll be back to myself soon. I really don't like this...I just want to be back to myself.

In other news, I was accepted into college, Georgian Court...although I'm just waiting to hear from federal aid or else I can't go...it's just way tooo expensive. I want to major in early childhood education with a minor in spanish. I just love spanish and want to back into it. It's really useful this day in age.

That's about all for now...until next time...Peace

Another med adjustment

So I had my pdoc appt today and we made more med adjustments. We both want to keep me from going back to where I was the last time I was there, which was a super sad state. So, my lamictal and abilify have been increased. I have seen a remarkable difference so far, which is good, so it can only get better from here.

Hubby took the kids to the beach today for the entire day, so it was a nice me day. I got the house clean, went foodshopping alone and just had some me time. I feel so refreshed right now. The kids are totally wiped out from being at the beach fronm 9am to 3pm, but that's a good thing. they'll sleep good tonight!!! :)

what can be next??

Dr. K increased my lamictal and I started feeling better nearly right away the next day. Things were looking up, until I went to pick my meds up at the pharmacy. Insurance wasn't covering my abilify. I panicked...getting home quickly to call the insurance company. We've maxed out the allowed rx benefit we receive each year..

I'm just in a panic. I don't know what to do. A two week supply will cost me $94. I can't find the medicaid denial letter, so applying for patient assistance is out of the question, unless I tear through my room and files tomorrow, and even so, that process takes a little while to complete.

I'm just so frustrated, it's not even funny. Sometimes I just want to go to sleep for a while...not sure how long, but a while. Just when I think things are looking up, something knocks me down. It literally makes me crazy

My New Blog

Yes, another blog. I've been meaning to start one to help me with my bipolar dealings. It started about 6 weeks ago, this latest bout with depression, progressively getting worse. This is the longest depression I've had in just so long. Normally I'm on the high end of my cycling. I can't stand the depression, as it affects my entire family. The only good thing that comes out of it is I'm pretty calm, not easily angered or frustrated. But, I'll take a mania any day...and my manias are manias...truly awesome. Who wouldn't want to feel that good??

Diagnosed at age 16, I now, at nearly 34, finally found the best therapist "S" and the best psychiatrist Dr.K, in the entire world. They both truly care about my well being and are there for me ,24/7.

In any case, this is a start. I want to blog every day, and I might blog some more later. It might help me sort things out. I know I want to write about some dreams I've had lately.